Letter For A New Baby Arrival

Judgement day ~ and the world turns into a different direction

I woke up in a strange bed. Well strange not quite like that. It was the bed of my grandfather. Strange, no? Maybe even a Art perverse, but in such situations, it is probably not important. I did it because I asked my grandmother about it. I did not really, because the bed is too soft and it is performed, what I feared. Bad back pain and a pinched nerve. I will not sleep in this bed. Back in my own bed I catch an eye. Resume.

Yesterday I woke up at 14 clock, after working at night. The world was all right and my grandma told me that the state of my grandfather this morning, even be shown an improvement. He was moved from 3 days in an induced coma to allow his heart rate and his breathing can stabilize and normalize. 14:10 clock and I'm still a little drowsy, jokes about the nurse of my grandma. The telephone klinkelt and my uncle's turn. The condition has deteriorated. I come to the hospital and you better too. Powerlessness. I get dressed and drive off. I hurry, because I want to arrive in any case before my uncle in the hospital. He is already there when I arrive and looks terribly worried. I expect the worst, but I hope only to a drastic deterioration.

The doctor gets us in and he does not take us into his room, but in a separate room at the entrance. I have a terrible feeling of helplessness and I hover over everything. The doctor told us that before a few eye glances at the past, apparently nuztlosen rescue attempts, died of a heart attack. His heart had been through too much in recent weeks. I am prepared, tense and I know there my uncle just goes like this. I buzz a thousand thoughts through my head, just not the thing is that my grandfather died. Perhaps a slight shock. We are led into the cool X-ray room, where a human form of a white sheet is covered. The nurse pulls the Lakel the way down to the shoulders and at the moment world collapses.

My uncle is crying and I, with my back to them, almost mesmerized in a kind of confusion and paralysis. With the death of my mother a few years ago I have not seen such. I was young, had had little contact with my mother, had had too much blame and the global order still intact, because I had my grandparents, who always took care of everything anyway. But the love and dependence to my grandpa, which is so great that I do not know how to go on my ... our life is.

Compared to my uncle (his son) and my grandma, I have very little crying. Most peculiar, however, was bad when my grandmother requested that I bring her to the hospital so they can see Him. It must be inconceivable, if someone with 40 or more years married, and suddenly all at once, the only and true love is gone. I can not even imagine, how difficult something like that and I guess I would even commit suicide if I would be happening.

If I currently think of how much he can leave a gaping wound in our midst, then I shoot the tears in his eyes. I regret not having more effort, that he would at least have some pride and all this stuff that probably is in a familiar relationship with only secondary. And now I have no opportunity for that. I'm probably completely adult and there is no turning back.

It is now 6:22 Clock in the morning and I still can not sleep yet. My back hurts and I'm afraid of the future. With the death of my grandfather, we must now move away from here. The apartment is too big for 2 people and within the next month we will probably have to move out here and set us to a smaller apartment. It is strange that collapses with a man the whole world and me a thousand things going through my head the moment, some of which are even bizarre. I own a car, have more responsibility than I ever wanted and that's probably for the next time my last entry. Who knows if I move away, if we, after that will have internet. Determined, but not immediately, if the finances do not . Allow Funny that me running so busy, I'll satisfy my Internet addiction in the future, but my head up his own and shows me things that will change.

Tim, Moritz pyow and I will again see for sure. at some point. As it stands with the rest I can not say. Even if you never really were a part of my life, even if I do participate in my life read so I'm going to miss anyway. At least I think I should currently say that. Bite soon, hopefully!

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HOW TRUE! ~ \u0026lt;3

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J-LOVE! ~ Finally!

HA! Hab ma chance today rumgeschaut Ebay. Hab Japan could be confirmed real jersey, blue and almost 1 / 3 cheaper than im Laden. Yehaaa. Bin bisschen skeptisch aber der Verkäufer versichert, dasses original ist und sogar noch die Adidas-Etikette dran sind. Na hoffen wir ma das beste. Hach ja...endlich mein stylisches, eigenes Japan Trikot.

Ich weiß aber noch nid was ich mir hinten draufmachen soll XD Ich könnte entweder ganz klassisch die 7 drauf machen mit Nakata oder was eigenes, was irgendwie cooler wäre XD Aber mir fällt grad nix ein....